Ukukhetha phakathi kwabathandekayo kunye nolonwabo lwethu

UJames Joyce unebali elifutshane, "u-Eveline," malunga nebhinqa eliselula le-19, u-Eveline Hill, ojamelene nokhetho phakathi kokuqhubeka nokuhlala notata wakhe owayemhlukumeza eDublin kunye nokushiya iBuenos Aires kunye naye (imfihlo kuyise) umthandi, umatiloshe ogama linguFrank. U-Eveline uthembisa uFrank ukuba ahambe naye kwaye amtshate, kwaye okwethutyana, uyavuya ngale nto. Akasokuze aphinde eve uMiss Gavan, umphathi kwivenkile asebenza kuyo, esithi kuye phambi kwabathengi, "Miss Hill, awuboni la manenekazi elindile?" Endaweni yoko, uya kuphathwa ngentlonipho. Ubomi bakhe noFrank, ucinga, bungangcono- bungcono kakhulu - kunokuba babenjalo ubomi bukanina ongasekhoyo notata wakhe. UFrank, ngokungafaniyo noyise, unobubele kwaye uneentliziyo ezivulekileyo. Uyakuthanda ukucula kwaye uyindoda elungileyo.

Kodwa njengokuba usuku lokuhamba lusondela, iingcinga zika-Eveline zijikela ngakumbi nangakumbi hayi kwikamva eBuenos Aires kodwa ukuya kwixesha elidlulileyo. Utata kaEveline wayesoloko ehlukumeza. Iminyaka ibinzima ukufumana nayiphi na imali yekhaya iphume kuye, kodwa mva nje, ebeseqale ukusongela u-Eveline ngobundlobongela, esithi uza kwenza ntoni kuye kodwa ngenxa kanina ofileyo. Okwangoku, u-Eveline ngoku uzifumanisa ecinga ngecala elingcono likayise: ngendlela awabenza ngayo abantakwabo kunye nokuhleka kwakhe xa babengabantwana ngokufaka ibhonethi kanina; njani kanye, xa wayegula, wamfundela ibali kwaye wenza i-toast. Uyakhumbula kwakhona ukuba wayethembise umama wakhe ukugcina usapho ludibene. Ufanele enze ntoni? UJoyce ubhala athi:

Baleka! Umele abaleke! UFrank angamsindisa. Wayeza kumnika ubomi, mhlawumbi uthando, naye. Kodwa yena wayefuna ukuphila. Kutheni kufuneka angonwabi? Wayenelungelo lokonwaba. UFrank wayeza kumbamba, amsonge. Wayeza kumsindisa.

Xa ixesha lifika, nangona kunjalo, u-Eveline ufumanisa ukuba akanako ukuhamba. UFrank uyamtsalela esikhepheni, kodwa ubamba isinyithi ngamandla akhe onke. Isithintelo siyawa, kwaye uFrank uphindela emva ngaphaya kwesithintelo esiya ku-Eveline, embiza, kodwa watsho phantsi. U-Eveline ukhetha utata wakhe omhlukumezayo ngaphezulu kobomi obungcono noFrank. Ukhetha ukuhlala eDublin.

Ndiye ndabazi abantu abakwingxaki kaEveline. Kungekudala, bendinomfundi owenze kakuhle kakhulu kwisiqingatha sokuqala sesemester kodwa umgangatho womsebenzi wakhe wehla ngesiquphe. Ndimbuzile ukuba kwenzeke ntoni. Uthe wayebizelwe ekhaya ukuba ayokukhathalela abantakwabo abancinci kunye nelungu losapho eligulayo. Umfundi wayefuna uncedo kum ekuthatheni isigqibo sokuba enze ntoni. Ubuzile ukuba ndicinga ukuba angangumntu ozithandayo ukuba ukhetha ukushiya idolophu yakowabo ukuze ajonge kwizifundo zakhe. Andikhumbuli ukuba kanye kanye ndathini, kodwa ndiyakhumbula ukuba ndamthumela ibali likaJoyce malunga ne-Eveline Hill.

Yintoni esifanele ukuba siyenze kwimeko enje- apho amalungu osapho azimiseleyo ukusibamba ebomini?

Into yokuqala endinqwenela ukuyiphawula kukuba eli tyala lahluke kakhulu kunale ilandelayo: Umntwana owonqenayo nongakhathaliyo udlalisa imali yabazali bakhe endaweni yokukhangela umsebenzi, kungenjalo uhlala ulala edolophini. ngelixa umzali ogulayo efuna uncedo. Kwezi meko zamva nje, abantu bakhetha ukonwaba okungenamsebenzi ngaphezulu kweemfuno ezibalulekileyo zabo basondeleyo kunye nabathandekayo kwaye mhlawumbi, ngaphezulu kwemisebenzi yabo.

Ityala endinalo engqondweni lihlukile nakwelo apho umntu ovela kwimvelaphi engathathi ntweni esenza ubutyebi kodwa angavumi ukubolekisa ngoncedo kusapho lwakhe.

Abanye banokuzama ukuzoba ukufana phakathi kwamatyala afana nalawa kaEveline okanye umfundi wam kunye nalawo womntwana ongenankathalo okanye osisityebi ngoku olibala iingcambu zakhe. Abanye banokusebenzisa okufanayo ukwenza ipeyinti kumntu okhetha ukulandela iinjongo zakhe njengobugovu kunye nokungabongi. Kodwa akukho kuthelekiswa apha. Ukucaca, andicebisi ukuba wonke umntu ovela kwimvelaphi ehlwempuzekileyo otyeba kwaye aphumelele unembopheleleko yokuthumela imali kumalungu osapho ahlwempuzekileyo, nokuba. Kuxhomekeka kwindlela abanye abalunge ngayo kuye. Abazali banokuthi, emva kwayo yonke loo nto, babephethe gadalala kakhulu - ngokwasemzimbeni nangokwasemzimbeni- kangangokuba baphulukane nalo naliphi na ibango abanokuba nalo kumbulelo okanye ngoncedo lomntwana. Kodwa kwiimeko ezininzi, ngakumbi ezo apho abazali bakhe bengekho nto ngaphandle kwenkxaso- mhlawumbi bezincama kakhulu ukuze bakwazi ukuhlawulela ukuya esikolweni - bekungayi kuba yinto engamanyala kwaye kungathandeki ukubuya umva kubo kamva, xa umntu enokunceda.

Nangona kunjalo, iimeko endinazo engqondweni zahlukile. Into efunwa ngamalungu osapho kwiimeko ezinje ngezomfundi wam okanye uEveline ahlala efuna ayilulo uncedo nje. Bafuna omnye - ngesiqhelo umntwana kodwa ngamanye amaxesha umntakwenu, umzukulwana, okanye esinye isihlobo- ukuncama iinjongo zakhe, amabhongo kunye nethuba lokufumana ulonwabo. Banyanzelisa ukuba babe nelizwi kwindlela obuya kuhamba ngayo ubomi bomnye umntu, kwaye eyona nto iphambili kubo ayisiyiyo eyabanye abantu kodwa yeyabo.

UCatherine Catherine Arrowpoint ovela kwinoveli kaGeorge Eliot UDaniel Deronda izizathu ezahlukileyo kwi-Eveline Hill. UCatherine uvela kusapho lweengcungcu, kwaye kwimeko yakhe, ayisiyo mali okanye ixesha elifunwa ngabazali bakhe; Endaweni yokuba, abazali bakaCatherine, umama wakhe ngakumbi, banyanzelisa amandla e-veto xa kufikwa emtshatweni webhinqa eliselula. Umama ufuna uCatherine ayeke umbono wokutshata nemvumi, uHerr Klesmer, evela kwimvelaphi ethobekileyo. Uzama ukweyisela uCatherine ukuba umanyano enjalo iya kuba engafanelekanga - ihlazo kusapho.

Ngelixa u-Joyce's Eveline ahlulwe ngaphakathi kwaye ethandaza kuThixo ukuba ambonise indlela eya phambili, umama ka-Catherine uthi ngokucacileyo ukuba uCatherine unemisebenzi yosapho ethintela ukutshata no-Herr Klesmer. Umama uzama ukuziva enetyala-ayeke intombi ishiye isicwangciso sokuba ngumfazi wendoda ayithandayo. UCatherine, nangona kunjalo, uyala. U-Eliot ubhala:

“Umfazi okwisikhundla sakho unemisebenzi ebalulekileyo. Apho umsebenzi nokungavisisani, kufuneka alandele umsebenzi. ”

“Andiphiki,” watsho uCatherine esiya ebanda ngokulingana nobushushu bukanina. “Kodwa umntu angathetha izinto eziyinyani kwaye azisebenzise ngobuxoki. Abantu banokuwuthatha ngokulula umsebenzi ongcwele wegama njengegama loko banqwenela ukuba kwenziwe nangubani na. ”

Ewe, kunokwenzeka ukuba kube lula kuCatherine kunokuba u-Eveline eme endaweni yakhe, kuba iimfuno zikaMama zikaCatherine zisekelwe kwikhowudi yentlalo leyo uCatherine ayibona njengobungqina. Umama kaCatherine akafuni ncedo. Okwangoku, la matyala mabini ngeendlela ezibalulekileyo ezifanayo, ngaphandle kokuba la mabhinqa mabini matsha enza ukhetho olwahlukileyo. UCatherine ukholelwa ukuba unelungelo lokutshata nendoda athandana nayo, kwaye uyayenza. U-Eveline akaze agqibe ekubeni unoxanduva lokuhlala, kodwa ufumanisa ukuba akakwazi kuhamba.

Ngelixa uEveline ejongene nengxaki yakhe, ukhumbula into eyathethwa ngumama wakhe ebhedini yokufa. Umama ke wayenomsindo kwaye engenangqondo ngokupheleleyo, kodwa amagama abuyela ku-Eveline: "Derevaun Seraun." UJoyce akaboneleli ngenguqulelo yebinzana, kodwa kuyacaca ukuba, eli libinzana lamaIrish laseIreland elithetha ukuthi: "Ekupheleni kolonwabo, kukho iintlungu." Sinikwe ukuqonda ukuba i-Eveline, eli binzana licebisa imali eseleyo ukuxhasa ukuhlala.

Kukho, nangona kunjalo, izifundo ezahlukeneyo u-Eveline awayenokuzifumana kwilizwi elidala. Unokuthi, umzekelo, agqibe kwelokuba uya kuhlawula ixabiso ngokushiya, ukuba mhlawumbi iintlungu azinakuphepheka, kodwa nangona kunjalo, ukuhamba noFrank yinto ekufuneka eyenzile. Kutheni engenzi njalo?

Kunzima ukuyithetha, kodwa ndicinga ukuba uEveline ufumanisa ukuba kukho isibophelelo esimbambe eDublin, ibhondi angakwaziyo ukuyikhetha. Kwakunokuba lula nge-Eveline ukuba ahambe noFrank aye eBuenos Aires ukuba utata wakhe wayengalunganga kwaphela, ukuba akazange azame ukonwabisa abantwana bakhe abancinci okanye enze nantoni na enakekela uEveline. Ixesha elidlulileyo lika-Eveline, kuloo meko, ngebelimhlophe, kodwa ikamva lakhe beliya kuqaqamba, mhlawumbi liqaqambe ngakumbi. Into ebi ngaphezu kokungabinalo kwaphela uthando, ngamanye amaxesha, luyinto eguqukayo, encinci, kunye neyokuzingca, uthando olunamandla ngokwaneleyo ukuba lusibangele iintlungu kodwa alunyanzelekanga ngokwaneleyo ukuba lusizisele ulonwabo.