Kutheni le nto UkuHamba sisihogo saBantu abaXhalabileyo

Ndinomdla omtsha endiwusebenzisayo xa umntu eziphatha kakubi kakhulu. “Ndiyathemba ukuba kuzakufuneka uhambe,” nditsho ngokuvakalayo, kwaye ukuba anditsho ngokuvakalayo ndiyacinga. Ukuhamba yindlela yokuhlukumeza ongenakuyichaza; Kuya kufuneka uphile kuyo ukuze wazi ukuba ihlahlela njani emphefumlweni wakho, impilo-ntle yakho, nobomi bakho.

Ukuba uxhalabile kwaye ufudukile kutshanje okanye ulungiselela ukuhamba, mhlawumbi uyazi intuthumbo yokwenza uluhlu olungenasiphelo; ukuba nengqondo yakho iye yintsholongwane xa uzama ukulala; Ukujongana nokungaqiniseki kwendlela oza kuyifumana ngayo yonke into onayo kwiibhokisi; ukuhamba ujikeleze imigodi yakho yangoku ujonge konke ekufuneka kwenziwe; ejongene noloyiko lokuba awuyi kuyenza ngokuhamba kwemini; ukuzama ukuqonda ukuba ugcine ntoni kunye nento oza kuyiphosa nokuba kutheni ungazidinga izinto ofuna ukuziphosa; ezibuza ukuba ngubani ofumanekayo kwaye ngubani onokuthembela kuye; ukujongana notshintsho, nokuba lulungile; ukudinwa emzimbeni nasengqondweni nangokweemvakalelo; ukwenza isigqibo emva kwesigqibo emva kwesigqibo; Ndiziva ndonganyelwe kukungabikho kombutho; ukuvumela ukuhamba kunye nokuqhelana nendawo yakho yangoku; iinkxalabo ezingenagama, eziyinyani kwaye zicinga.

Ndiyazi njani le nto kakuhle? Kuba mna nomyeni wam sisandula ukusuka kwindawo esasihlala kuyo iminyaka eyi-l4. Kwafuneka sifuduse iiofisi ezimbini, indawo yokugcina, nazo zonke iimpahla zethu, iincwadi, ubugcisa, iilinen, izinto zasekhitshini, oomatshini kunye nezinto esiqokeleleneyo ukusuka kubomi obubini. Sasineeveki ezintathu ukuba sikwenze, kwaye yandiphantse ukundingenisa. Ngexesha esasikwindawo yethu entsha, ndaye ndafikelwa yindlela yokudinwa eyayintsha ngokupheleleyo kum. Khange ndikwazi ukukhupha ibhokisi okanye ndenze isigqibo. Ndaba nohlobo oluthile lokukhubazeka ngokweemvakalelo. Yonke into yayibonakala yoyikisa kwaye ingaphaya kwamandla. Abahlobo bangena bezokundinceda, ndema apho, ndingenakuzinceda, ndingakwazi ukusonga ishiti okanye ukubeka i-shelf liner ekhabhathini.

Emva koko saya eSilver City, eNew Mexico ukuya kusebenza. Inxalenye yomsebenzi yayikukuphonononga izinto ezingaqhelekanga eSilver City, eyayiyidolophu enemigodi enoburharha egcine ubunyani bayo basentshona .....

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Malunga neenyanga ezimbini ezidlulileyo, iZiko leLotus lavulwa kwindawo yedolophu, kwaye ndasayinela iiklasi ezimbalwa. Iyokuqala yayiyicamngca ekhokelwa yindoda egama linguJeff Goin.

Iqaqobana labathathi-nxaxheba lahlala ezitulweni ezinobuchule, kwaye savala amehlo njengoko uJeff wayethetha nathi malunga nendlela yokwamkela nabuphi na ubunzima obuqhubekayo ebomini bethu. Yamkele nje. Ukwamkelwa akuthethi ukuba akukho nto uyenzayo, okanye awuthathi manyathelo okuphucula imeko, kodwa oko kuthetha ukuba awuyilwi. Ngaba wayefunda ingqondo? Ngaba wayesazi ukuba yile nto kanye, kanye kanye endandifuna ukuyiva?

Ngamehlo am avaliwe, ndimamele ilizwi likaJeff, ndiye ndaqonda ukuba ukuhamba yinxalenye yobomi. Uxinzelelo, loyikeka, ewe, kodwa yinxalenye yobomi. Ndancuma ngaphakathi njengoko ndandiqonda ukuba yenzeka kuye wonke umntu, njengeerhafu, ukutya kakhulu, ukunika iimpahla owakha wazithanda kwisisa, ukufumana imibimbi kunye nemibimbi, ukubopha xa kubanda, kuphuma iphepha langasese. Kwaye njengokuba kuchaziwe apha ngasentla, iyakugqitha, itshintshe, yahluke ngomso kule nto iyiyo namhlanje. Kutheni uzilungiselela? Kwafuneka sihambile. Sihambile. Ndibethe udonga. Abahlobo beza kunceda. Yamkela, yamkela, yamkela. Ekugqibeleni, ndiza kuhamba ukusuka ekuhambeni. Ndiyakuxabisa ukuba nengqondo enokuthi idlale ngamagama, naxa ndisiva nje ukudlala.

Ukudinwa nokudinwa kwam akuzange kuphele nje. Khange ndive namaxilongo avela ezulwini evakalisa isityhilelo esivela kuThixo. Kodwa inkqubo yam yemithambo-luvo ikhululeke kancinci, ndafumana umbono, kwaye ndakwazi ukusondela kulo lonke ixesha lokuhlala kwam okumangalisayo eSilver City ngentliziyo engatyhafiyo nengqondo ecacileyo.

Kukho, ndiyazi, izinto ezininzi zimbi kakhulu kunokuhamba. Kwaye ukuba kwaye nini na xa befika, ndiyathemba ukuba ndiza kuba nakho ukukhumbula ukwamkelwa endikufunde eSilver City.

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Iifoto nguPaul Ross.

UJudith Fein yintatheli ephumelele amabhaso kumazwe aphesheya ethe yafaka isandla kupapasho olungaphaya kwekhulu. Ungumbhali WOBOMI LUHAMBO: Uguquko loMlingo woKhenketho kunye NESIPHUMO SOKUSUKA EMINKOWITZ, emalunga neMvelaphi yobuNtu. Iwebhusayithi yakhe www.GlobalAdventure.us